Monday, December 15th

Hi woke up - geez its raining here in Southern California but its nice to experience some weather. I like the rain. Keeping positive today. I have to get a little exercise in - maybe some walking on the treadmill. Well gotta go to work.

Oh by the way...I am in a word, action and thought

Non sequiter.

But you probably get that already. :)

See Change already

I lasted exactly 15 minutes in a Beginning Step routine, hah! I can't wait till I figure out how to post pictures....that will be fun.

Today is Day One

I guess I am going to just step through that door and try and find me which will be difficult. This will be a blog about my physical and spirtual health and my journey to obtain it. Sounds boring, huh?

I am inspired to begin this blog after reading the January issue of Oprah magazine where she talks among other things about falling off the wagon. I know this well. In my view, at this point in my life, I am spirtually, emotionally, and physically bankrupt. I am out of gas. Done. Finito. What have I become? Pretty pathetic if you ask me. What am I so afraid of? Change and how it will affect others? My relationships....? I don't know. Everyday, I want to mediate and just live in that moment and forget the rest....stress...deadlines...fear... and oh yeah, my ever present anxiety. The constant nagging weight of feeling like I just don't belong anywhere. Does anyone else feel this way on a daily/hourly basis?

It's not like I don't have a lot to be thankful for...I just wish I was at peace with myself.

So Today is Day One and I am going to have two goals today: 1) To improve my mental health by calming my mind to some good relaxing music 2) Exercise in some fashion even if its for 5 minutes.

Baby steps, small steps, at least there steps...right?